Letter To Life
01/11/25
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Dear life,
To know yourself, is to know the world. Going within myself, within my being, has been a privilege. Not everyone understands that there is a whole world waiting to be uncovered inside of them. There is no doubt that the hand of God has played a large role in helping me see who I am inside and out, however, meditation and focusing on my spiritual development has also allowed many great things to bloom inside of me. I feel as though I am on a great journey. Not just any old journey but the great kind, the kind where one crosses desert land amidst the scorching heat from the sun. The kind of journey where one continues to sail in the sea past the choppy waters caused by roaring storms. This grand journey has taken place within the depths of my heart, where silence prevails. All my life, I have been silent. In this silence so much has taken place. I have grown into a sequoia tree from a seed. I didn’t expect that! I didn’t expect any of this immense love from the great lord, God, or such a vibrant spiritual reality. My journey is truly a gift.
So many times, I have seen people so immensely focused on their physical lives, so caught up in the nine to five mentalities. They have lost the magic spark in life or maybe they have never seen it. It makes me very sad. But not all hope is lost. I and people like me can show them that life can be magical, but if only they are willing to see it. After all you must know the saying, “You can lead a horse to water but you cannot teach it to drink!” I will add that sometimes spirituality cannot be sought unless there is a genuine life event that triggers what I call, “The questioning.” Often a significant life altering event occurs. After that event, the person lives in anger for some time. When the anger subsides, they are left facing grief. At this point, they will “wander and wonder.” They will think about what they could have done differently so that maybe the event could have been prevented. When they are ready to realize that the event may have been inevitable, they will go through, “The questioning.” “Why did this happen? Why me? Why am I suffering?” At this point, there is a subtle opening of a spiritual door. The door is just ajar. One can easily ignore this opening, and go back into the worldly, back into “being busy,” in their nine to five lives, or, they can make a conscious choice to seek answers. I call this point, “The dilemma.”
If one chooses to pay attention and walk through the spiritual door, then the next step in their journey is to seek answers to the grand questions of life such as “What is the purpose of life?” and “Why is there death?” In this phase the person will go within, deep within for answers. They will speak to spiritual people, and often start following spiritual personalities, until they reach a point of internal peace, the point at which there is an epiphany, or a grand realization of why the life altering event occurred. Finally, after finding the answers within, they may find that they want to do deeper spiritual work in the world, by serving humanity somehow. This is the gist of a spiritual journey…but this is only the tip of the iceberg. I can say that I have been through this journey myself. My journey started when I asked the classic question, “Why is there so much suffering in the world?” I wondered why the rays of the sun were biased, providing warmth to some and leaving others with drought. I wondered why there was an umbilical cord, when it had to be severed at birth. I felt agony when I realized the innocent dream of spending eternity with my loved ones, could never come true. I felt the pain of the widowed day when I saw that happiness its true love had died in war torn countries.
All of these emotions could have easily been buried deep within me, but God’s will was mighty and loving. He wanted me to experience spirituality and so I enrolled into the school of life, to study spirituality. Twelve years later (since 2012), I have strengthened my faith in the great lord, God and learned that life’s pains, are not a manifestation of God’s will, rather are a manifestation of mankind’s will. I will reflect on this more in another epistle. For now, if you are reading this, I would ask you to go through the spiritual door that is ajar in your life for wonders await those who seek them.
– Mary